Independent

I'm told by so and so to be fully independent on my own, financially and emotionally and in every area of my life.

My question now is, then why do I want to get married with someone in the first place? Should I just be alone on my own? Oh man confused...

Felt quite sad to hear this. That this person wants me to be like this. Then how if we are married how? Are we going to live separately? Are we going to have separate lives? I actually feel hurt to know this.

What is his real agenda for marrying me?

Today I happen to bump into him and his brother at the Chinese restaurant we frequent in orchard. We were all surprised to see each other. I'm not really excited to see his family at all now. After hearing from him that his mother tried to dissuade him from marrying me. Really feel like speaking expletives over her but I'll refrain from doing that. These people don't know what we go through and yet want to comment in other peoples lives.

Secretly the evil flesh hopes that they all don't make it for our wedding and that we have a peaceful one. But of course it's not possible because it's family. And it's not wise to not include them. Least they have something to say in the future.

I'm just going to leave this matter to Jesus.. He will take care of it.. Because my Jesus loves me