Somethings really have to let go

hmm.. I don't want to lie to myself, but I'm still upset about the termination. I have never been terminated before and it just feels bitter. My flesh wishes that this person goes to hell and burns in eternity. However in reality that really won't be very nice to torture someone like that.

I have said what I need to say. Employers really hide whatever it is about the job until you really join them, spend time in the company to find out that it is all just a facade and they just paint a rosy picture to you.

Can't imagine, I wasn't told that I had to spend my one hour break lunching with my team mates. I wasn't told that everyday I would have a briefing after 6pm when my official work time ends at 6pm. I wasn't told that I had to actively and it's compulsory to join their team bonding activities. It's a recruitment company for goodness sake, how can they be that extreme. I'm not sure if it's part of the labour law but I think it's too much to bare for me.

He is the owner of the company, definitely his level of commitment is different from mine, I'm just the employee getting a certain wage per month. To me it's simple, I'll commit whatever working hours I need to commit and there after I will not be responsible for any other work.

Some managers really need to be removed. The problem is not the staff but the manager in this case as I see it. Clearly he has issues. The turnover rate is so high, I'm the 10th staff that has left this team not including other staff for the other team that left just last month.

The targets set is clearly impossible to meet for a newbie consultant like me. And yet I'm expected to produce within 2 weeks of joining them. It's really ridiculous. All I can remember is the short meeting I had with this manager was " I want to see your effort effort effort!". This guy seriously has issues.

Doubt the remaining teams members would be staying, given the under performance of the team. I think they are better off elsewhere.

I'm pissed because they terminated me faster than my resignation to them. My authority has been given away and I'm gonna claim it back!

I definitely have some issue with submitting to authority. People that I see are not worthy of me submitting to them, I will not give in. It seems that this authority thing is getting to me these few days. I really need Jesus for this, can't handle on my own.