I'm told by so and so to be fully independent on my own, financially and emotionally and in every area of my life.
My question now is, then why do I want to get married with someone in the first place? Should I just be alone on my own? Oh man confused...
Felt quite sad to hear this. That this person wants me to be like this. Then how if we are married how? Are we going to live separately? Are we going to have separate lives? I actually feel hurt to know this.
What is his real agenda for marrying me?
Today I happen to bump into him and his brother at the Chinese restaurant we frequent in orchard. We were all surprised to see each other. I'm not really excited to see his family at all now. After hearing from him that his mother tried to dissuade him from marrying me. Really feel like speaking expletives over her but I'll refrain from doing that. These people don't know what we go through and yet want to comment in other peoples lives.
Secretly the evil flesh hopes that they all don't make it for our wedding and that we have a peaceful one. But of course it's not possible because it's family. And it's not wise to not include them. Least they have something to say in the future.
I'm just going to leave this matter to Jesus.. He will take care of it.. Because my Jesus loves me
Thursday, 29 March 2012
Tuesday, 27 March 2012
This person needs to get out of my head
Omg the constant voice of this person keeps rattling in my head. I need to get my thoughts focused on something else.
My dislike for this manager has ballooned over the past few days after leaving the company. I would really wish to erase them out of my mind. I think it's good for me not to put this company in my resume in the first place. What was I thinking man.
Seriously this recruitment company is like a total rip off. Plus the owner of the company is not very same. Can't wait to witness the collapse of them.
Operating by hiring newbies to the industry and giving them a low salary plus practicing a 20% pay cut when never hit target is absolutely disgusting. And to think I could even think that it's about the job fulfillment not the money. Well now I'm going to be honest with myself, I want the salary and I want to be paid well.
Oh might I add that the newbies hired don't take the pre requisite EA license before joining. I didn't know that it was a must for me to do it. Now I'm glad I left, won't know what would have happened to me. Clearly this company should not even be operating.
The owner squeezes the life out of his employees and drives a fancy posh car! Can you believe that. Everyone is slogging to help pay for his lifestyle.. I hope these pple can really see that.
My dislike for this manager has ballooned over the past few days after leaving the company. I would really wish to erase them out of my mind. I think it's good for me not to put this company in my resume in the first place. What was I thinking man.
Seriously this recruitment company is like a total rip off. Plus the owner of the company is not very same. Can't wait to witness the collapse of them.
Operating by hiring newbies to the industry and giving them a low salary plus practicing a 20% pay cut when never hit target is absolutely disgusting. And to think I could even think that it's about the job fulfillment not the money. Well now I'm going to be honest with myself, I want the salary and I want to be paid well.
Oh might I add that the newbies hired don't take the pre requisite EA license before joining. I didn't know that it was a must for me to do it. Now I'm glad I left, won't know what would have happened to me. Clearly this company should not even be operating.
The owner squeezes the life out of his employees and drives a fancy posh car! Can you believe that. Everyone is slogging to help pay for his lifestyle.. I hope these pple can really see that.
Saturday, 24 March 2012
Somethings really have to let go
hmm.. I don't want to lie to myself, but I'm still upset about the termination. I have never been terminated before and it just feels bitter. My flesh wishes that this person goes to hell and burns in eternity. However in reality that really won't be very nice to torture someone like that.
I have said what I need to say. Employers really hide whatever it is about the job until you really join them, spend time in the company to find out that it is all just a facade and they just paint a rosy picture to you.
Can't imagine, I wasn't told that I had to spend my one hour break lunching with my team mates. I wasn't told that everyday I would have a briefing after 6pm when my official work time ends at 6pm. I wasn't told that I had to actively and it's compulsory to join their team bonding activities. It's a recruitment company for goodness sake, how can they be that extreme. I'm not sure if it's part of the labour law but I think it's too much to bare for me.
He is the owner of the company, definitely his level of commitment is different from mine, I'm just the employee getting a certain wage per month. To me it's simple, I'll commit whatever working hours I need to commit and there after I will not be responsible for any other work.
Some managers really need to be removed. The problem is not the staff but the manager in this case as I see it. Clearly he has issues. The turnover rate is so high, I'm the 10th staff that has left this team not including other staff for the other team that left just last month.
The targets set is clearly impossible to meet for a newbie consultant like me. And yet I'm expected to produce within 2 weeks of joining them. It's really ridiculous. All I can remember is the short meeting I had with this manager was " I want to see your effort effort effort!". This guy seriously has issues.
Doubt the remaining teams members would be staying, given the under performance of the team. I think they are better off elsewhere.
I'm pissed because they terminated me faster than my resignation to them. My authority has been given away and I'm gonna claim it back!
I definitely have some issue with submitting to authority. People that I see are not worthy of me submitting to them, I will not give in. It seems that this authority thing is getting to me these few days. I really need Jesus for this, can't handle on my own.
I have said what I need to say. Employers really hide whatever it is about the job until you really join them, spend time in the company to find out that it is all just a facade and they just paint a rosy picture to you.
Can't imagine, I wasn't told that I had to spend my one hour break lunching with my team mates. I wasn't told that everyday I would have a briefing after 6pm when my official work time ends at 6pm. I wasn't told that I had to actively and it's compulsory to join their team bonding activities. It's a recruitment company for goodness sake, how can they be that extreme. I'm not sure if it's part of the labour law but I think it's too much to bare for me.
He is the owner of the company, definitely his level of commitment is different from mine, I'm just the employee getting a certain wage per month. To me it's simple, I'll commit whatever working hours I need to commit and there after I will not be responsible for any other work.
Some managers really need to be removed. The problem is not the staff but the manager in this case as I see it. Clearly he has issues. The turnover rate is so high, I'm the 10th staff that has left this team not including other staff for the other team that left just last month.
The targets set is clearly impossible to meet for a newbie consultant like me. And yet I'm expected to produce within 2 weeks of joining them. It's really ridiculous. All I can remember is the short meeting I had with this manager was " I want to see your effort effort effort!". This guy seriously has issues.
Doubt the remaining teams members would be staying, given the under performance of the team. I think they are better off elsewhere.
I'm pissed because they terminated me faster than my resignation to them. My authority has been given away and I'm gonna claim it back!
I definitely have some issue with submitting to authority. People that I see are not worthy of me submitting to them, I will not give in. It seems that this authority thing is getting to me these few days. I really need Jesus for this, can't handle on my own.
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