Every Friday there would be a certain group of people who meet at a cafe to talk for 5 hours at least, majority of the time casual idle talking which I personally would not like to be part of it.
Talking bad about other peoples mishaps and how they are not receiving their blessing. I don't enjoy such fellowship at all. Apart from the part that they do really discuss about verses in the bible. the rest of the evening's conversation does not attract me at all.
I can't wait for these meetings to dissolve and not happen anymore. Or perhaps they could just stick to shorter meetings. I completely cannot click with this group and feel much better alone or in small groups.
Sometimes I just wonder if this is what I really wanted and if this was what God really wanted for me.
I can't help but look back and think, was I being cheated into thinking that this was the right relationship for me. or did I just want a relationship so much that I just jumped into it.
Tonight I want to be selfish and just ask that from now onwards no more Friday meetings. You love me right God? You know what to do.
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