Suddenly feeling abit low.. been declaring and speaking and believing but nothing seems to be fantastically happening.. can I just say that the people around are blessed except me..
And it gets very frustrating when I hear their testimonies.. in fact it doesn't give me any hope at all..
I'm quite tired of this speaking thing, fighting off the devil.. so I'm told to do.. where is Jesus is all this? Can the big brother please stand up?!
It's just so overwhelming I can't even see my future.
Everything is about the Word I'm always told.. Jesus is a gentlemen and He will not force you they tell me.. I have to ask Him to come.. Spend time in the Word they would always say.. this year is coming to and end and I have not yet really seen my abundance yet.. my credit card bills keep amounting and the sales the come in don't even cover a fraction of it..
Suddenly my old life style didn't seem that bad anymore.. my friends from work have not been contacting me..now the people I hang out with is my bf and his friends who only happen to be just church goers..
What did I pray for exactly? I have no idea
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